THE POEM CALLED LIFE

This is my first new year without my Acha. It doesn't feel very good. When you don't have that somebody who has been with you all your life It doesn't feel good at all I know I have to move ahead Try to get his dreams come true I know this year is going to be tuff but I count on a set of people who I know will be with me Above all Acha is still with me in a more powerful role With his principles embossed in my heart I move forward Cautiously but Courageously..... Ps.Thank God for all the support my mom and I are getting for the past weeks.....The support has given us strength we barely knew we had. 

.....I NEED A COOK I am wondering how to get hold of a cook.... I tried getting one from an agency but they seem to be very expensive and the reviews seem to be bad I tried to get hold of somebody from the neighborhood. No Luck. I tried asking our driver to get hold of someone.He is still searching. What to do???????Let's see if I can get one by the end of this week. I have to. Ps. Dependence roots from the inability to perform or delegate. Ok Ok... or pure laziness. But this is different. Amma is the one who is doing all the cooking and she needs help.  

- After Acha had his new medicines he seems a bit better.Hoping for the best. - We are still hunting for a cook to ease Amma's tension and tire - M has been traveling all through October. He says he hates it but I know he secretly loves it.I wish I could travel like him. - Am *preparing for an exam. oops! I forgot to add a few more words * 'supposed to be'. I've not touched the books. - Achu has and is busy with school, rain holidays, no rain holidays,diwali holidays,drawing class and playing with his neighbors Ps: It has been one month and I didn't know I hadn't posted a single thing....The month got divided into 4 very busy weeks which in turn were filled with last-minute days......and whoosh! October 2011 gone forever!!!!!

Acha's reports are not good. Prayers please. We have been given a weeks time to show better results. If they don't turn out good then we have to try other 'side effect' filled doses of medicines :( Amma and I are in search of the perfect cook.Help us! M is just being his normal self.  Achu and I are waiting for his holidays. A long week to go Gopa anna came for a week.Had his interview. Took us for a movie.'Mangatha'.The sum total of all the violence I have seen all through my life plus a bit more equalled the movie!...Not gory though. Would rate it with an ok.The break witnessed us having some pop corn iced tea coffee and coke ( Yeah! considering the eataholic I am this was very meager since I kept myself away from Mayo and the like). For dinner - Gopa anna had some Hot & Sour Soup , M Appam and milk and me some horrible kothu barotta.For desert G and I had yummy Ice creams while M had a glass of mango juice. Missing having a brother or sister :(..... ...

Other Job Better pay Present Job Get to a 9.30am office at 11.00 am make your own deadlines Browse while you work delegate delegate delegate have a week long vacation and still get paid full talk rot about how awfully managed the 30 year old company is attend every minuscule function at any time of the day/week/month/year never do basic work get transport and transport allowance travel in India and overseas with luxurious stay loads of experience in different areas leave office when you want to AND blackmail half yearly that you would be paid ten times (!!!!!!) the salary in any another company and earn a raise (brilliant!) So what's the deal? PS. I had to write this out. Maybe years later the super ego/ immature will hit enlightenment or may be not.......BTW heard about the guy who drops the "I'll divorce" line every time there's a fight?....Strangely they are different chapters of the same book :)

Suddenly I feel all alone A shoulder I seek beside Though amidst a crowd Why do I feel deprived With uncertainties around me I seek just one defined One I can fall back on When the world acts blind Wonder which worldly tie is the most strongest and true For I have felt all the bonding But sadly confident of none So a materialistic life camouflaged with fake smiles and superficiality around This lone soul lives on............

Each day is filled with varied moments...some sweet and some spicy......... I am a suryanamaskar-ist now :). It is so simple and effective. That's what they say. A, my childhood buddy met with an accident a couple of days back. She is my yoga companion as well. She's got a fracture and so the both of us have decided to start after shes ok. Atleast that's what I want to do. She has been forcing me to continue.But I don't want to do it without her.A...you sure are going to get well soon di. My prayers are with you. I miss meeting A terribly :( Went for S's second's birthday. Met up with a bunch of gal friends after a long time. Needed more time to dissect each others lives but hey we did start :) Acha's follow up is coming up again.Tension mounts. Hoping all those levels are favorable ones. Achu has a couple of days off this week and the next. He is growing up to be a whining,exploring,talkative darling...He takes turns in being them one at a time... ...

do fathers have to be told to do things while mothers just instinctively do it?...Just give him the medicine I'll pack his lunch...just get him ready while I have my bath...why don't you take him along?....put on his shoes....can you give him a bath?... can you get him to do his homework? are mothers held responsible for everything associated with the child?....You should give him food every hour he is so skinny....why hasn't he had his haircut?...his skin is so rough aren't you rubbing any oil?... do fathers enjoy more 'me' time than mothers???????? does the kid adore his father so much and take the mother for granted?

Acha's results weren't very good this time round. All of us are pretty worried. The doc told us to continue the meds for another 20 days and get back to him with the scores. Hoping things turn out good. Amma is still fighting the flu that refuses to leave her. Trying to convince her to go for a master health check up. But there's this phobia our family has towards check ups that is keeping us away from having it done. M is very much in town these days. We flicker,bicker and then snicker....the whole process is getting quicker! There are days when we LOL in togetherness and then there are days when we need to SOS. Achu's health is my major concern. His cold isn't letting go. Have been trying all the home remedies ( Though not too sincerely) and visited the doc but nothing seems to work. He missed school for 2 days this week.  I am in my own world of imperfection. The minute motivation strikes I get all worked up but sadly it lasts for less than a minute.Somewhere...

Wow! Its been a month since I got to write on my blog. Nah! Wasn't that busy...just lazy to sum up things that were happening quickly...here's the list Acha's follow up score was good. A big relief to the whole family.:) Amma had her does of colds,coughs and fever. She is still recovering. I got her birthday all wrong. She celebrates her birthday this month.Planning out something special. Yeah! She hates the fuss but then...I need to fuss...It's my birthright :) Achu is a big boy. I barely get to spend any time with him now a days.I get him ready for school. Which happens with conversations at varied decibels and cannot be considered as quality time spent.He's at school from 7.45am-2.30pm.I pick him up, check his lunch box first then check for HW. I get back after my Yoga at 8.00pm. Feed him his dinner while he watches TV or jabbers stuff or cajoles me to play cars. Sit with him to complete his homework.Put him in bed at 9.30-45pm.....Where's the time?????? ...

Appa had a little eye problem. Had a few tests done. Doesn't seem very bad. Needed new glasses.He is still on medication. Hope he gets better soon. He hates having pills you know. Am into yoga now. Totally :). Oh! you guessed it. If am regular its only because I have company A, my school friend comes with me. We are on the beginners 3 month course. A is so flexible and am as stiff as a frozen sausage. But these 5 days of yoga sure has made me a happier person. Remember what happens when gals meet......;b.....But seriously I feel a bit agile you know. Amma needs some good rest. Am planning out a schedule that will ease her routine.She keeps telling me she needs a break. Its high time I do something. Any ideas?...Hey! Its her birthday tomorrow!! Achu's school reopens next week. Have to jot down a menu. Can't imagine getting up sooooo early and sending him to school with snack,lunch et al...Just imagine ...he has to leave by 7.35 am max!!!!!!!..sheeeshhhhh! Ps. Life is th...

I wanted Achu to go to Swingers for a dance workshop but it didn't work out. So he went for another theatre and dance workshop which started 2 week ago and ended with a cute show yesterday. KK was in town for Chinnu's admission. Acha got her into VIT. So am glad we might have more visits from KK for the next 5 years.   P,U,C and I met up at my place. It was great. The kids came along so it felt good watching them play together.Our chats were restricted to kid-friendly topics. A you missed it darling and we missed you. MIL is sick. She was in hospital for a couple of days. She is recovering. But at a very slow pace. She will need a physiotherapist for a month or two. Had a little trip planned for next week but it got canceled. Poor Achu will not have a trip this summer to jabber about. Its sure summer but we did have a little thunder storm yesterday night and a sweaty power cut to go with it. The search for the best inverter is on. I optimistically blame my stars for what...

When I was a child It was easy to love and not expect I was loved all the same When I was a gal It was easy to love but expectations crept in and I was loved all the same When I was a lady It seemed easy to love and to expect -a right There was love all the same Now a woman Its a dream to love and not to expect Where is love ? I ask, in shame. Unconditional Love An oxymoron to me :)

     Shashtri looked out and spotted Durga Devi looking celestial and jubilant in a purple and red silk sari. Her knee length hair was neatly decorated with orange chrysanthemums. Her bindi resembled the setting sun. A very masculine Sreenivas stood next to her. His physique could frighten any being in the vicinity. Then there was the very prosperous Madhanlal who wore gold and diamond rings on all his ten fingers.             Badri in his usual white dhoti kurta and his wife Roopa in a simple silk cotton orange sari with gold border, were there too. They looked disheveled by the 112 km drive they had. undertaken. Natrajan and his friend Vikram in their starched and ironed white shirts with khaki pants were restless for they were already late for school.        Roopa’s desperate eyes fell on Jeevatha in her little pink polka frock, dancing, singing and playing hide and seek between Padma’s sari p...

Our power cables snapped at 8.55 pm yesterday. Called the power guys and they inspected the place and found a burnt cable.It was a hot summer's night and we were not very glad to know that our cooling appliances were not gonna work until the next day. Panic followed by expressions and emotions that resembled a family of ants disturbed by a burnt out match Amma: Oh no! What to do let's go to a hotel Acha: Let me call B and find out if anything can be done Me: Let's go to a hotel ...for a change Achu: Amma pediyarikkunu (Am feeling scared) Candles and emergency lamps lit, we created our own fans with Achu's puzzle books, the day's paper and a marriage invitation card. Option 1 Since it was still early we checked a hotel close to our house. Extravagant you call it?....bear necessity I call it...it was boiling...thankfully we didn't have any mosquito friends buzzing into our eardrums. But then hey it was hot and we were bathing in sweat. Acha: Double roo...

Went for a seminar at the Institute to gain CPE hours.Glad I went for it. Got a few books from Landmark. Their having a 50% off on a section of books. Have to go and dig a bit more. The heat is rising , power shut downs more often, watermelons and cucumbers on the road, a lot of sweat....Its the summer of 2011 at Chennai Routine : AC room - AC car - AC cabin - AC car - AC shop - AC car - AC room . End of day. Willis I love you :) Have to salute to the ironing man, the construction workers, the factory workers and the many who have to toil in the hot sun. Thank my Amma for standing in the kitchen which equals a furnace and still providing us yummy food.  Ps. Have alot of reading to do.

Early in the morning I heard a car back up tune and it brought back memories. Made in India by Alisha Chinai. Sigh! I still remember getting introduced to Indian Pop with this song. So as I was saying, this sudden flashback has lent me a strong urge to write about the songs that still make me smile or tap my feet.Here's the list not exactly in chronological order Papa Don't Preach by Sharon Prabhakar Lots of songs of  Baba Seghal Apache Indian had a style of his own style... Boom shaka laka , Arranged marriage and Chock there are my favorites Then there was this adorable Falguni Pathak with her Aaj Piya The romance in Aur Ahistha by Pankaj Udas KK had a few good ones...Pal  Mehnaz and her Banungi Mein Miss India  Khaled's DIDI Shaan's Tanha Dil and Dil Kya Kare (remix)...I also remember the song Aisa Hota Hain with his sister Saagarika Euphoria had excellent numbers... well picturised like Ab Na Ja, Maaeri and Doom pichak How could I forget Rag...

My FB Status message today "Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus....High time we got back to our own Planets :b"   Totally upset over how men  get to be total %^&* and still get away with it. I haven't been verbal about it but I need to vent Most of the men in my life ... feel they deserve what they get and so are never grateful find it demeaning to request/ask so they only demand never listen but need total attention when they drop a word or move a toe claim to be always right so the other side happens to be always wrong swear that being loud = being right hate shopping with women or claim to hate it   underestimate women...on second thoughts...underestimates everything except self (which stands totally over estimated ) never admit their solutions came from sources other than their grey cells ( unless they want to flatter someone) can't whisper and want the whole world to know they are on the phone are untidy and feel their gender doesn't allo...

Relationships today can be categorized by the way they deal with the money they earn. Gone are the days when the man managed the money and the woman managed the home. The percentage of earning women has risen. That’s where a bitter sweet relationship is born. Its sweet because the inflow is more and bitter because of the complexities it brings with it. How do double income families manage their money? Husband and Wife Situation Spend Save Result 1 Haphazardly Haphazardly In the long run this breeds discontent. 2 A fixed amount given   to spouse who manages all expenses Individually Confusion during higher expenditure months. Savings for the family are left out. 3 Joint account with fixed sums transferred every month out of which both of them spend for the family while individual expenses are done out of their personal accounts Individually for self and out of joint acc...

I am denied the right to complain because.... I have my mother who is doing so much of work from 5.00 am to 12.00 am and doesn't grumble at all!!! I have my father who has been having health issues for the past 2 years and still has his attitude strong in place I have my son who is a totally cranky five year old only when he is hungry or sleepy - otherwise he is an absolute gem  So I am going to compulsively stop complaining look up to the 3 individuals when I am tempted to keep myself constructively occupied Wish me luck :) Ps. Updates of "constructively occupied" will follow :D