THE POEM CALLED LIFE

This is my first new year without my Acha. It doesn't feel very good. When you don't have that somebody who has been with you all your life It doesn't feel good at all I know I have to move ahead Try to get his dreams come true I know this year is going to be tuff but I count on a set of people who I know will be with me Above all Acha is still with me in a more powerful role With his principles embossed in my heart I move forward Cautiously but Courageously..... Ps.Thank God for all the support my mom and I are getting for the past weeks.....The support has given us strength we barely knew we had. 

Acha's reports are not good. Prayers please. We have been given a weeks time to show better results. If they don't turn out good then we have to try other 'side effect' filled doses of medicines :( Amma and I are in search of the perfect cook.Help us! M is just being his normal self.  Achu and I are waiting for his holidays. A long week to go Gopa anna came for a week.Had his interview. Took us for a movie.'Mangatha'.The sum total of all the violence I have seen all through my life plus a bit more equalled the movie!...Not gory though. Would rate it with an ok.The break witnessed us having some pop corn iced tea coffee and coke ( Yeah! considering the eataholic I am this was very meager since I kept myself away from Mayo and the like). For dinner - Gopa anna had some Hot & Sour Soup , M Appam and milk and me some horrible kothu barotta.For desert G and I had yummy Ice creams while M had a glass of mango juice. Missing having a brother or sister :(..... ...

Each day is filled with varied moments...some sweet and some spicy......... I am a suryanamaskar-ist now :). It is so simple and effective. That's what they say. A, my childhood buddy met with an accident a couple of days back. She is my yoga companion as well. She's got a fracture and so the both of us have decided to start after shes ok. Atleast that's what I want to do. She has been forcing me to continue.But I don't want to do it without her.A...you sure are going to get well soon di. My prayers are with you. I miss meeting A terribly :( Went for S's second's birthday. Met up with a bunch of gal friends after a long time. Needed more time to dissect each others lives but hey we did start :) Acha's follow up is coming up again.Tension mounts. Hoping all those levels are favorable ones. Achu has a couple of days off this week and the next. He is growing up to be a whining,exploring,talkative darling...He takes turns in being them one at a time... ...

Acha's results weren't very good this time round. All of us are pretty worried. The doc told us to continue the meds for another 20 days and get back to him with the scores. Hoping things turn out good. Amma is still fighting the flu that refuses to leave her. Trying to convince her to go for a master health check up. But there's this phobia our family has towards check ups that is keeping us away from having it done. M is very much in town these days. We flicker,bicker and then snicker....the whole process is getting quicker! There are days when we LOL in togetherness and then there are days when we need to SOS. Achu's health is my major concern. His cold isn't letting go. Have been trying all the home remedies ( Though not too sincerely) and visited the doc but nothing seems to work. He missed school for 2 days this week.  I am in my own world of imperfection. The minute motivation strikes I get all worked up but sadly it lasts for less than a minute.Somewhere...

Appa had a little eye problem. Had a few tests done. Doesn't seem very bad. Needed new glasses.He is still on medication. Hope he gets better soon. He hates having pills you know. Am into yoga now. Totally :). Oh! you guessed it. If am regular its only because I have company A, my school friend comes with me. We are on the beginners 3 month course. A is so flexible and am as stiff as a frozen sausage. But these 5 days of yoga sure has made me a happier person. Remember what happens when gals meet......;b.....But seriously I feel a bit agile you know. Amma needs some good rest. Am planning out a schedule that will ease her routine.She keeps telling me she needs a break. Its high time I do something. Any ideas?...Hey! Its her birthday tomorrow!! Achu's school reopens next week. Have to jot down a menu. Can't imagine getting up sooooo early and sending him to school with snack,lunch et al...Just imagine ...he has to leave by 7.35 am max!!!!!!!..sheeeshhhhh! Ps. Life is th...

I am denied the right to complain because.... I have my mother who is doing so much of work from 5.00 am to 12.00 am and doesn't grumble at all!!! I have my father who has been having health issues for the past 2 years and still has his attitude strong in place I have my son who is a totally cranky five year old only when he is hungry or sleepy - otherwise he is an absolute gem  So I am going to compulsively stop complaining look up to the 3 individuals when I am tempted to keep myself constructively occupied Wish me luck :) Ps. Updates of "constructively occupied" will follow :D

Amma finished her sabari mala trip and is back with a very bad flu. The trip went on well and she had a very good darshan. While amma was away I had to 'manage' the house. Its not that easy when it includes managing 3 brats ( Acha, M and Achu) who don't have any intersections I could take advantage of. I didn't do very well but I 'managed' to live through...yes they did too. Acha had his normal medical check up. The results are yet to come. Slightly worried with what the Doc is going to say. Prayers. M left to Jaipur today. He should be back in two days.The roads seem smooth and we are making total use of the very little times we agree on things....watching movies,visiting malls, shopping, hunting for flats, test driving, planning holidays....Its been good for the 2 of us. Achu actually loves it when am around.This guy doesn't show how much he misses me when am not there.I bunked office for a couple of days last week as amma was away and found out.  He t...

because.... Acha had his follow up with his doctor today and things are FINE. Yipeeeeeeee! He is doing good. A Big Relief. Yesterday I had a wonderful evening with friends ( U, S and B) at U's Golu. Achu also had a gala time with N and M. On the work front deadlines have no meaning since we are done with all the files that needed attention. Have to get the office ready for Pooja. Its exciting to plan and execute something otherthan work, at office. God is watching over me :) Ps. Like I said today is beautiful...I am relishing each moment ...I am grateful to alot of family and friends...for there is nothing more peaceful than having a hand to hold and a shoulder to lean :)   

...things just go blank. I am in one of those phases where I stand totally helpless I hate where I am now. God my only Refuge...... God please get things back to being normal...please.

This month.... My SIL's Inlaws celebrated their 50th anniversary...we had great fun at the party. My Inlaws celebrated their 43rd anniversary...it was a family get together at a hotel for lunch. My Parents celebrate their 35th wedding anniversary this sunday.... I did have plans to give them a good relaxing holiday but God had other plans..... My Acha fell ill this Monday and is advised bed rest for the next 15 days :( So this is what I did I rented out a few DVD's of good Malayalam movies and took it home yesterday ...told them it was meant to be a surprise but thought of checking the DVD player which was dormant all its life and just as I thought the player had picture but no color or sound....So today I went to a service center and fixed it.Now they can start celebrating 2 days in advance :) And we have earthquakes happening off and on in our seventh year of togetherness....M and I have a very very long way to go......God you have a lot of homework to do :) ...

Amma and Acha are going to Guruvayur today.They won't be here until thursday Morn. Four whole days without them means I have to do ALOT of things on my own. Wish I could go with them but I can't get into any temple for the next 5 days ...baaaah.... Sunday will breeze away with a visit to M's place and a bit of grocery shopping for the next 2 days :) When Amma is here I only need to worry about the breakfast. But now I will have to plan for lunch and dinner as well.....hmmmm Now this is what I have in mind                    Monday (15)           Tuesday (16)                   Wednesday (17)                      Breakfast     Dosa & Sambhar...