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My Personal Monster - I

Tomorrow I visit the dentist ...my monster....at 4.00pm

Can't really frame how frieghtened I am. The feeling of immense helplessness. I have to go and I have to go tomorrow. Have run away from this monster for 4 yrs now and today I confront him with lots of damage done. He took a look at my X ray and frowned...nodded his head in disbelief and told me there was lots to be done....GOD....my heart sank and my head felt dizzy...

An extraction and a root canal for tomorrow and lots more to follow....

I am praying for my self today

I am scared...

PS. Realised that the more you run away from ur personal monsters the more the invincible they grow to be. But given a chance I will still run away yet again..maybe with a bag full of painkillers though.......
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  1. JayDecember 27, 2009 at 10:41 PM

    well well.. how are you now de.. take care ma.. You are right the more we stay away from them, they race back to us.. that reminds me, its time for me to go to my dentist too.. for a filling ;)

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